Get your sweet, eyeliner, lace and velvet clad butt to Ascension THIS SATURDAY

Free Cowboy hats and flour at the door.



After many years on the dusty trail, DarkElvis is stepping down from the running of Ascension.

This Ascension, December 5th, will be his last, so come along and send him off in style! And what more fitting a way to say au revoir than with an ASCENSION GOTH SPECIAL!

We've got guest DJs Anorexic Dread and Uninvited Guest, as well as your usual hosts DarkElvis, Monochrome and Caterwaul.

We've got cheap drinks, free pool, and no door charge.

And most importantly, we've got the ability to keep playing as long as the crowd can keep up with it! (That's right, no more 3am techno lockout. Praise the deity of your choice)

9:00pm - til whenever
The Sly Fox
199 Enmore Rd Enmore

Be there!

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Worlds Aids Day - 1 December, 2009 - Respect & Protect To the six friends that were part of my life that I loved more than I was ever able to tell them... To all the ones that have passed that have no one to mourn and remember them... To all the ones that live each day with the horror that invaded their lives without invitation... Young or Old, Rich or Poor, Male or Female... I have not forgotten and will never forget!

i am so sad because i saw a plush sophie the giraffe on gap.com which is SO much cooler than the rubber version i'm not sure i want my kid teething on, no matter how safe they say it is. and SO much cuter, see?

but when i tried to check out, it was sold out. only it kept showing on the site for some time. teasing me.

no one else in the US seems to have the plush version and i'm not sure i want to pay $40 for a plush and latex set from canada because i don't want the latex one, no matter how cute it is, no matter how long i've wanted one, or how much they remind me of little rubbery, squeaky toys we had as kids. because as one amazon reviewer said, the latex sophie also reminds me a lot of a dog toy. and either way, she's overpriced. i remember when avery was a baby and i first learned of this cute giraffe, they were about $14, now because of all the hype and maybe the CPSIA testing, they're $20. or more. but when i saw the plush version i got all excited because evan loves to chew on plush toys and i had coupons so she'd only have been $6. then again, i just learned that gap doesn't let you stack coupon upon coupon anymore. i had some rewards certificates, though. anyway. i was really going to update with how great this week started off, then got sidetracked, obviously.

on to the good things.

i think i can officially say that evan's finally learned to nap. he even slept through the dryer buzzing this evening. earlier today he woke up as soon as i put him down for his first nap, but later he fell asleep during our walk to the library, stayed asleep while we were there, and the entire walk home. there have been a few instances before this when he's slept for like two hours while we were out, with carseat/carrier/stroller transfers and all. but lately he's actually been napping in my bed for his morning nap for an hour or so. this is huge and i'm hoping not a temporary phase but progress.

there were several other things i had wanted to mention but i am completely exhausted after hunting for the elusive plush sophie.

and maybe because day two of no coffee is now over. i didn't even miss it or feel like i needed a pick me up (until now). and i didn't get a caffiene-withdrawal headache yesterday or today. maybe that nourishment tea is truly miraculous or maybe it's just mind over matter.

"If I cast my eyes before me, what an
Infinite space in which I do not exist;
And if I look behind me, what a terrible
Procession of years in which I do not
Exist, and how little space I occupy in
This vast abyss of time..."

Hey. Guess how many words I wrote today? NONE! HAHAHA! THAT’S RIGHT, NARY A SINGLE SYLLABLE OF FICTION, SO THERE. Ladies and gents and everyone else, I’ll have you to know that every single Draft Zero in my queue has officially been composed. And this morning I sent “Reluctance” off to its editor (squeaking in under deadline, BOOYAH), which means that my deadline list is looking MIGHTY FINE.

Of course, any minute now editorial feedback and rewrites are going to come down the pike for Dreadnought, Clementine, and Fort Freak … but please — let me enjoy the moment while it lasts. I can scarcely tell you what a leisurely day this has been, with no obligations except my day-job work. This must be what it’s like to only have one job! It’s been so long, I’d nearly forgotten the sensation.

To celebrate the occasion, I shall give you links!

• First up! Mark Henry - As you know Bob, Mark is our Chief Male Member of Team Seattle (which somehow sounds filthy, but ’tis only fitting). In short, his books are absurdly awesome — irreverent, hilarious, disgusting, and intensely perverted. Something for everyone! I swear, his Amanda Feral stories are a guaranteed recto-stick-ectomy. So please click the link and go show him some love … some dirty, dirty love …

• Because Subterranean Press is evil - Bill is offering 50% off preorder titles. This is your chance to pick up some great reading material at unbelievable prices - just click that-there link and follow the directions to textual bliss. Offer lasts until end-of-day Friday, December 4th. Merry Christmas, y’all! (Sorry — Clementine isn’t available for preorder yet, so there’s nothing of mine to be nabbed. But I’m sure that even the most casual browser among you will find something of interest.)

• Kyle Cassidy and Crew - Yesterday, Kyle and his lovely wife (plus two lovely guests) came to visit, and it was just plain amazing. He even took some shots for the Where I Write series, of which you can see an iPhone outtake right here. I don’t know why I look a little pissy, staring off like that. I was listening to/looking at Trillian over on the couch. It’s hard not to look at her. She’s really pretty. Anyway, I know for a fact that Kyle has about a jillion pictures of me laughing and looking like my usual cheerful dork self, on account of how he had me laughing most of the time he was holding the camera :)

• Steampunk Exhibition Ball — Right here in Seattle, at the Museum of History and Industry, Saturday night. I SHALL BE THERE. I won’t have any books for sale, I’m afraid; but if you bring me yours, I’ll be happy to scribble all over ‘em for you, at your discretion. I believe I’ll be reading a bit? Details remain a little fuzzy. But trust me to be there, bedecked as a shipwrecked steampunk pirate — via a costume I’m building around this gob-smackingly lovely corset (which is even more gob-smackingly lovely in person, believe it or not). Anyway, if you’re also at this event — do stomp up and say hello! I love meeting new people, and will talk your ears off if you give me half a chance.
  

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so i got up before 5 today to be at work at 6...ugh...the center usually isn't open that early but they opened early the one day 'cuz they're changing servers in california and they had to have us taking all their calls...(luckily 6 to 8 am here is 4 to 6 am there...so not a whole lot of calls even for the populous state of california...) so all the operators who happened to be coming in at 8 got stuck going in at 6...for some odd reason, even though i almost always come in at 11:30, of late i've been having to come in at 8 on mondays solely...so i got stuck with this schedule even though i got off at 8 pm the night before...well, now at least it's my weekend...and this weekend'll really be long this time! too bad i have school work to do today...hopefully i can finish soon...

why do people put the most vague shit on applications? how the fuck am i supposed to find a valid number for PCLANSUPPORT in california? really.... no dates of employment listed... no contact number... not even a fucking position listed on this shit? just pclansupport and the location listed is california.... fucking idiots, and it is always dumb shits in either california or florida.

i am trying not to look at my dad in terms of money. he hasn't asked what the kids or i want for christmas and he's usually done so by now. this year he forgot my kids birthdays. he acted like i hadn't called him specifically to tell him that john and i had set a date, even though i know i did. and even though i've given myself this little pep talk many times, i'm mature enough to see it through. he was the typical "disneyland dad" in that he'd take me to the toystore and let me run wild, picking whatever toy i wanted, on our yearly visits or whatever. and he did the same thing when zachery was younger, because isn't it easier to buy a kid crap toys than get to know them?

i'm really trying to live a more authentic life and not just take from people what i can. i'm not using any of this against my father and even though i know we'll never know each other or be able to relate to one another on any level deeper than this, i don't have to keep seeing him only in terms of what he can buy us.

it's difficult because i want this or that. or at least enough money to substantially pay off some debt and mark a few of the larger items i already have to the kids from "grandpa."

...

with so many things weighing on my heart and mind i do wonder why i'm even bothering with a wedding. why did we spend money on a chapel? my mom reminded me, in a not unkind way (but still), that i blew my chance at having my dad give a shit about my wedding when i didn't abort my child at sixteen like he wanted me to. it's probably true and one of those things i'd like to address, if he and i actually had a solid relationship, but we don't *see above* so the fact that he knocked up my mom at sixteen will just have to be one of those little ironies i live with.

i don't doubt for a second that john and i should be married, i just wonder about going through the motions and whether or not the JOP would have been a better option. maybe i'm just getting into and out of the funk that is always november.

...


we've had a mild autumn so far. thank you, global warming. and now i feel i really need to get off my arse and walk to the library with the double stroller i got mostly for that purpose. but now, it's buttass cold outside.

...

i started my first scrapbook. mine. i figure i need to do something nice for myself before i do it for my kids. so mine first, then zachery's, avery's and evan's because i figure sometime between now and when i start the last two, i'll have printed the digital pictures i need.

...

so many regrets, so little time. is that what the fall does to everyone? winter isn't much better, i know. but i don't suspect that i'll feel a ton better until spring returns but i somehow have to keep the momentum going.

...

today was day one of nourishment tea with honey and rice milk in the morning, instead of coffee. it didn't suck as bad as i thought it would.

finished reading The Original of Laura by Vladimir Nabokov today...alright...pretty good for what it is...i mean, you have to go into it knowing what to expect...it's very incomplete...a few fragments without much of the story seeping through...of interest only so far as there is interest in Nabokov himself, of course, that's what brings people to it in the first place...it's not a novel but a document...and the bits that are there are good, too bad all the bits never got written down...and i should say the printing is amazing...it has facsimilies of every index card (front and back) Nabokov wrote on, one a page, with its text printed below...it definitely doesn't pretend to be anything other than what it is, and making for a beautiful, captivating edition as well...tomorrow is gonna suck...i have to go to work early as balls...too fucking early...the center is opening two hours earlier than usual and i'm randomly stuck on this shit shift...and as i worked the late shift today and have to go in so fucking early i'm not gonna get any sleep tonight...balls...

*blink*

Does this article strike anyone else as...a bit messed up?

There is definitely a subset of people who may require medical intervention to assist them in gaining health, but if someone is eating right, and exercising sufficiently, could it possibly be that their body is just supposed to be that shape and that weight? Weight is a poor indicator of health anyway - you can be 'overweight' and healthy, or 'thin' and unhealthy. This idea that "well, you eat right and exercise but you're still not conforming to a pre-set weight range therefore you need to take a pill" is pretty unreasonable and kinda dangerous, considering a lot of weight control pills at the moment are just pharmaceutical speed/speed substitutes.

Been a while since the last post, so here’s what I’ve been doing since then:

1. Biting my nails, as I’ll be biting my nails for a couple of months while I wait to hear back about The Book^TM;
2. Painting the basement, with only the bedroom and the corridor to take care of;
3. Finishing the book that I was reading, the one that I had problems with, that I struggled to finish because there were even more problems with it toward the end;
4. Working, as I tend to do at the day job, trying to catch up on the analytical requests that had to be put aside while I completed a rather large project;
5. Critiquing a manuscript for a friend, and I’ll point you toward it when it hits the shelves (hopefully in the near future, because it’s a really good read);
6. Plotting out Biohazards, which now has an actual title rather than a working title, and I’m rather pleased with myself about it;
7. Writing twelve pages worth of an idea just so that I could get it out of my system, since it’s not what I want to be working on right now.

Now that my break time is (almost) at an end, I’m reviewing what I’d written so far for Biohazards (and, yes, editing as I go, because I can’t help it) to refresh my memory. Starting Monday, I’ll start working on it again at a rate of 1000 words per day. As much as I’d love to see it done by Christmas, I’m giving myself until the end of January to complete.

For now, I’ll give up a snippet…

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spent yesterday evening hanging out at Josh and Molly's with Dustin and Courtney too...oh, and of course Maria and Lila! eating and later apples to apples...today back to work after so many days off...lame, but whatever...now i guess i've got schoolwork to stop putting off...

Pushing thru the market
square
so many mothers sighing
News had just come over,
we had five years left to cry in

News guy wept and told us
earth was really dying
Cried so much his face was wet
then I knew he was not lying

I heard telephones, opera house, favourite melodies
I saw boys, toys electric irons and T.V.'s
My brain hurt like a warehouse
it had no room to spare
I had to cram so many things
to store everything in there
And all the fat-skinny people, and all the tall-short people
And all the nobody people, and all the somebody people
I never thought I'd need so many people

A girl my age went off her head
hit some tiny children
If the black hadn't a-pulled her off, I think she would have killed them

A soldier with a broken arm, fixed his stare to the wheel of a Cadillac
A cop knelt and kissed the feet of a priest
and a queer threw up at the sight of that
I think I saw you in an ice-cream parlour
drinking milk shakes cold and long
Smiling and waving and looking so fine
don't think you knew you were in this song

And it was cold and it rained so I felt like an actor
And I thought of Ma and I wanted to get back there
Your face, your race, the way that you talk
I kiss you, you're beautiful, I want you to walk

We've got five years, stuck on my eyes
We've got five years, what a surprise
We've got five years, my brain hurts a lot
We've got five years, that's all we've got

Here are today’s stats for the fabulous urban fantasy adventure about a neurotic vampire/thief and her wealthy blind client, now with Bonus! Cuban drag queen and military intrigue:

Project: Bloodshot
New Words Written: 4985 (Some added last night; only about 4000 today)
Present Total Word Count: 94,570 words
Goal: Draft Zero by December 12 -ACCOMPLISHED





Things Accomplished in Fiction: Wrapped it up, baby. Wrapped up all of it. This, ladies and gents and all others, is a Draft Zero.

Things Accomplished in Real Life: Virtually nothing. This has been eating my brain and I had to get it out, out, out. And now - best of all - I have almost 2 whole weeks to batter this puppy into a Draft One before sending it back to Anne! [:: does a little dance ::]

Reason for Stopping: BECAUSE I CAN.

[Crossposted to/from my website. If you'd like to comment, you can do so either here or there.]

The entire ad said "Total. Market. Domination"

...which is really creepy.

Thanks Target, for this perfect illustration for Buy Nothing Day.

Here are today’s stats for the fabulous urban fantasy adventure about a neurotic vampire/thief and her wealthy blind client, now with Bonus! Cuban drag queen and military intrigue:

Project: Bloodshot
New Words Written: 6680 (YES. THAT’S WHAT I’M TALKIN’ ‘BOUT)
Present Total Word Count: 89,685 words
Goal: 95,000 words by December 12





Things Accomplished in Fiction: Raised a little hell. Not literally. This time.

Things Accomplished in Real Life: Day-job work; further adventures of Thanksgiving clean-up; laundry including bedding. That’s pretty much it, but in my defense, hey — did you SEE that word count? It’s amazing I even had time to brush my teeth.

Reason for Stopping: Time to go get the laundry out of the dryer, make up the bed again, fold all the clean clothes and put them away … and if this all gets done before the hubs gets home, maybe try to write YES A FEW MORE WORDS it could totally happen, you never know.

[Crossposted to/from my website. If you'd like to comment, you can do so either here or there.]

i was trying to delude myself into thinking it just wouldn't happen.

but in about three weeks the door to our fertile family will close.

"it's just an appointment," he said, "and i don't have to keep it."

but he will. he wants this and i'm much more at peace with being done than i was after i had avery. about 90% sure, and i don't think i'll ever be 100% nor do i think he needs to wait until i am. so.

thanksgiving at my parents' yesterday...lots of eating happened...lot of hanging out with and laughing at Jason (too cute!) and doggies that i miss and who miss me...we were over there almost all evening...oh, and i forgot to mention in my last post that i was taking Elizabeth out for a last walk or so and letting her back in, not being used to the cat, Hubcat (didn't know its name at the time) rushed out the door while i was taking her leash off so i flipped out and chased after the cat...she? mostly was running and hiding in the bushes behind their house...i didn't let her out of my sight...pretty much...i think she was mostly just playing, being a feisty young cat and all...finally she walked out into the open and i was able to coax her to come over to me...lucky that she's so friendly...the whole ordeal maybe lasted five minutes so it wasn't too bad...but i was freaking out about losing their cat at first...then i felt better because later when everyone came home i was leaving to go to the store with Justin and his girlfriend and their car wouldn't start and his dad came out and left the door open and Hubcat got out again...when we got bck from the store she was waiting at the door to be let in...

invader_kitty reminded me that I meant to post this.

Happy Friday, kids, and remember: Front-hugs are the Devil's handshake.

Warm dry home; helpful, hot husband who smells good; fat black cat; swimmy blue fish; wonderful editors; a marvelous agent; amazing publishers; super-cool boss; the Eden Moore books earning out; Boneshaker continuing to do well; distant family having a good time without me in better weather than I’m presently experiencing; a secret clubhouse that serves the world; friends who swing by with goodies today; friends who would totally swing by with goodies today if they were in town; friends who are in town but have other plans; friends who express the wish that I were back in their town; Trader Joe’s meat selection and “wine country” chicken salad; Tofurkey (shut up, I love it); candy-colored hair; shiny black boots; a big brick tower; reading recommendations; independent booksellers; chain booksellers; libraries; book-loaners; book readers; new wool coat with a hood; having about 1/3 of my holiday shopping finished already; fuzzy hats; too much work because it’s far better than not enough work; one vehicle which works and is fun to drive; Etsy; novelty tee shirts; The Gap’s revamped selection of jeans; Christmas travel plans; new work-out music; CuteOverload.com; McKay faux-chicken seasoning; Advil; pixelated socks; leg-warmers (even though I didn’t appreciate them the first time they came around; Coke Zero; six different styles of goggles; out-of-town conventions; in-town conventions; tights on sale at Nordstrom Rack; new headphones that keep my ears warm; uncommonly good cover karma; fingerless gloves; plastic cutlery and paper plates; sorted, itemized receipts for everything; hand sanitizer that smells like lavender and chamomile; footie pajamas; Google; cheap red wine; thrift shopping; PBS; good reviews of my books from people I don’t know (and to whom I am not related); my paper shredder; a pack of wild cards; and cheese.

[Crossposted to/from my website. If you'd like to comment, you can do so either here or there.]

Mary Beth and i completely rearranged the bedroom yesterday...it's all somewhat nice-looking now...and the tv's finally in a spot where you can watch it from bed without hurting your back/neck! (your=my) saw Justin for a little bit when they arrived in town...on the way home i stopped by spin street again to pick up a cd i saw the other day but had to investigate before i bought: Alan Howarth: Halloween: the Curse of Michael Myers soundtrack...given the date and all it was a risky proposal, listened to some clips and decided it's worth picking up used...and now it's thanksgiving...thanksgiving stuff to happen and follow...

Here are today’s stats for the fabulous urban fantasy adventure about a neurotic vampire/thief and her wealthy blind client, now with Bonus! Cuban drag queen and military intrigue — and yes, I’m making an early day of it:

Project: Bloodshot
New Words Written: 2594 (not great, not bad)
Present Total Word Count: 83,005 words
Goal: 95,000 words by December 12





Things Accomplished in Fiction: Argued extensively with a seeing-eye ghoul.

Things Accomplished in Real Life: Day-job work; went to the University Book Store and signed their stock as well as a few mail-order books; did more last-minute Thanksgiving shopping; beat head against wall.

Reason for Stopping: The apartment is not clean and people are coming over tomorrow. I need to change the litterbox, sort out food prep arrangements, vacuum and mop the (filthy) floors, and maybe even do some laundry, we’ll see.

[Crossposted to/from my website. If you'd like to comment, you can do so either here or there.]

Maybe I should turn my journal into a daily movie review. I mean, shit I watch enough of them and the vocabulary reviewers use is so... generic. You'd know that *I* would tell you the truth!!

Sorry, had to call a quacker a duck. It needed doing.

In other news... next weekend - Houston - Boondock Saints 2: All Saints Day!!!


WOO HOO!! That'll wash the Robert Pattinson bobbleheads RIGHT OUT of my hair :)

last night Mary Beth and i had our personal thanksgiving dinner...she'd cooked a bunch of stuff and it was all damn good...damn good! today i picked up the Hanovers' cat (it'd been boarded at a vet and they're coming back later today...) it's a new cat, if not a kitten then barely not so, i'd assume...it's really cute and really friendly! today on the way home i was out searching for something i didn't find but instead picked up a couple books at the library bookstore: Pylon by William Faulkner and Seven Japanese Tales by Junichiro Tanizaki...that's about it for now...

is putting christmas-related clothing on your kids for thanksgiving lame?

yes/no?

I give you stats for the dirigible/pony-express story with zombies, the Goodnight-Loving trail, and a 19-year-old Union veteran who’s stuck with a mechanical foot.

Project: “Reluctance”
New Words Written: 2885 (uh oh)
Present Total Word Count: 7525 words
Goal: 5000 words by November 29





Details: Aw, crap. Way too long. Will shelve it for now, and try to fix it next week.
[:: headdesk ::]

[Crossposted to/from my website. If you'd like to comment, you can do so either here or there.]

enjoying my time with Pig...she's so sweet and old and lazy and stubborn...came home last night and went to walk her but she wouldn't budge...i was about to go to bed so i knew it'd be a hell of a long time since she'd last been out and when we'd wake up so i was trying to get her to go out for her dire benefit, but she was laying in the bed and was being stubborn...i was trying to coax her so i put my arms around her sides and under her, not pushing or anything just putting them there and she snapped at me a little and then was immediately sorry...she had the guiltiest expression on her face and then rolled over so i petted her belly...i know she's old and i wasn't trying to push her so i let it go...got undressed and went to the bathroom...and of course when i got out she was up and wanting to go outside...and then when we were out she wouldn't stop walking! dogs are funny...and Elizabeth is a mighy fine lady...at work today i finished reading The Major Works by Gerard Manley Hopkins...did not like it...i mean, when it finally got to him writing in sprung rhythm the poems started to sound interesting, though sometimes feeling a bit overblown and beating you over the head with the sheer rhythmic attack (sometimes i guess that's alright...) but the subject matter was still only god this and nature that...hard for me to get too interested no matter how innovative the writing may be...oh and i really couldn't understand about one word he was saying, aside from a vague sense of talking about god and/or nature...i know i'm partially poetically retarded, but i dunno...it wasn't my thing anyway...now that i've worked my one day i'm off for three days in a row! (even though i WANTED to work the holiday for the pay...oh well...jerks...) but i guess i haven't had that holiday vacation feeling in a long time, which is kinda nice and takes me back...so there's that to focus on...

It's White Ribbon day, so if you have a spare couple of bucks, the people with the cardboard trays standing in malls or train stations are worthy recipients.

oh, and another stellar op piece from Andrew O'Keefe here.

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Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 13

Can you whistle?

Don't you love Einstürzende Neubauten?

Which is more culturally "valuable"? (yes I know everything about this question (including the answers) is ambiguous and open to interpretation, live with it)

Which is more emotionally "valuable"? (see above qualifiers)